Dear Diary #16 - My heart is full

Hey friends,

The word of the day today is most definitely #TRIBE.

I've said it before, and I will say it again, there are no words to describe how amazing my #tribe is. How this journey will be made all the more powerful because of YOU. 

From Darrin's support at home, to Jayden being my appointment buddy, to Codey always checking in. To dozens and dozens of people reaching out, family, friends, co-workers, #tribe.  I am truly overwhelmed.  And ever so grateful! 

We all get the privilege of choosing those in our life and I have chosen well! A million thank you's for all the cheerleading, positive vibes, and prayers sent my way over the last few months but especially today! 

Today had so many potentials. Today was scary. A start of another leg in this journey that had so many unknowns. And it has been a great day, because of all of you, #tribe. 

First round of chemo complete, and entirely uneventful.  No setbacks, no reactions, no issues.  I am still pretty hyped up on steroids so everything feels pretty good. Sleep feels like it might be hard to come by but I am hopeful that tonight is better than last night.  The steroids may have introduced me to my new friend Insomnia, and I will just have to hope that Insomnia doesn't cause anyone any damage. I am normally a GREAT sleeper, and this is new to me. You should all worry for Darrin, hahaha,  poor guy! 

I'll follow up with more details on the weekend, or in a few days, about how things are going and how I am feeling.  But today is a really great day, all things considered. 

My heart is full. I am enough. I am strong.

Peace and love

Barb

Comments

  1. Umbridge ShenanigansJanuary 23, 2021 at 12:44 PM

    Sending sleepy vibes or at least a hedge of protection around Darrin. :) xoxo

    ReplyDelete
  2. sallythewelshgirlJanuary 26, 2021 at 7:12 AM

    We have your back - you know it <3

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